I would like to talk to you about a very sensitive subject and to signpost those who may be affected to a very special support Organisation.(Cruse Bereavement Care)
In 1998, I endured alone, the tragic loss of a dear son. I had no one for support; no health professional seemed to understand my overwhelming grief and the need to be comforted. No medication offered. No emotional support. “Go to work Paul, pretend it never happened.” Well let me tell you, some months later I did try some work, three jobs actually. Yet, starting work was a big mistake as I was a total nervous wreck. This was obvious to any one who came into contact with me. (My unresolved grief was immense.) It should have been obvious I needed specialist care, the type not available on the N.H.S.
Somehow, miraculously in 2000, I discovered Cruse Bereavement Care. They offer Group Therapy and one to one support by people who are very experienced in such matters. (If only I had been signposted by my G.P.)
On my way to my first group therapy I had to pass Grey’s Monument in the city, it was very crowded. As I walked through the crowd I remember I felt invisible to everyone, I felt as if I was an alien. When I told one of the workers of these feelings I was promptly told, “Well Paul, I can see you, and you look human to me.” I told her no one cares or understands and she replied in the most wonderful and caring way. She held my hand and said the magic words, “Paul we care.” My words can’t describe how comforting her words were, and to have held my hand.
The beginning of hope and recovery.
After a while in Group Therapy, it was decided one to one counselling would be of benefit to me. That’s when I met Aunt Lizzy. I cried so much and then her words of wisdom dried my tears away. Such a special Lady; she also done something that has kept me going over the last 7 years, even in my darkest times. She gave me a very special book, Feel the fear and do it anyway by Sue Jeffers. It was the most profound book I could ever read and so much I could relate to.
And for the last 7 years, I may feel the fear…but I do it anyway.
With all due care
©Paul Davidson